give up

no one reads my blog anymore. so.i guessi can say waht i wanna really say.. no??

thinking back.. all those shit about gg to. c_____ is like.. crap? i mean.. if he can help us?. why the fuck are we like that? better still.. why the FUCK am I like that.? no faith? ha. how abt. can't be bothered. or better still.. is there such a thing as a god? notice how its small letters.. ha. i dunno anymore.

i mean.. i dun even know why im typinglike that. there was a time where i wun even think like that. but now. ha! i find that. yupp. its like that.

problems. yes. everyone has them.. so? even christians have problems. and why the fuck is mine the worst? parents. money.. relationships. fucking friends. who fucking blame the shit load mutherfucking shit outta you. for no appr reason. getting shouted at for no rhyme or hue. and a whole load of crap.

im major fucked up alr larhs. i can't stnad it anymore. God. HA.! what's the point. where are you? yes. i've strayed. so? you dun care a hoot or two. no? i ask for stuffs. like.. millions of them. and not one answered. not even when its close to my heart or wad nots. i mean. i try to understand that. hey.. its stupid right? at least.. one wish/prayer is answered. but. HA. i dunno larhs. i think im on the verge of giving it all up. somethg that was with me thru my childhood. hAHas. know smthg? mabbie its just a story. sortof. like. cinderalla, santa clause that kinda stuff..

if that sthe case. the book a real nice book. 66 books and a ton of chapeters. hasa. =D haven gotten rnd to finsh reading it yet.. got no discipline. well. prayed for it too. nope. dun have

just realized.. okok.. i mean.. i alr know. but.. humor me kk?
im fucking irresponsible. !!! hahsa. yay!! jump for joy wemme.!! thats me. so.. yea.. people gimme money to buy stuff for them.. i use them for my own entertainment purposes. so yea.. dun ever make a responsible perosn. cas i suck k? rmb that.. warn you guys alr..

but. back to the topic..

whats the point?? i don't see a point. enjoy life now larhs.. smoke. drink.. drugs(feel like taking them up.) esp smoking. so cool alrhs. and the drinking. i can't hold it well.. so.. drink more. can train.hahas. =D but.. WTH.. i need money.. must.. be.. "responsible" pay for the jerseys first.. dan. go deposit money into the fucking bank. cos the bullshit perosn decided to fucking call my fucking house. great. and my mum picked it up. and the fucking arsehole karen lim or smthg like that. hope she gets killed in an accident.. or better still.. a grp of men rape the fucking shitty day lights outta her and fuck her till she dies. great? or drown her in urine? or sm kinda acid? burn her lungs.. better still.. CRUCIFY HER?? hahas.. holy mah.. no meh?? very holy.. hahas.. =D cool.. see some joker get crucified. a girl somemore.. hey.. screw the nails in instd of hammering it in? how abt tt.. cooler..hahas.. nwae.yar. must enjoy life. i eman.. got one part all done le. got HER.. cool sia. she rawks my socks.. i love you so much dearest.. =D huggs huggs.. =D

sienz lahrs.i dun wanna do nthg larhs.. just.. enjoy life.. sch is unimpt. god is.. not there.. so no point le.. ha. go church for wad? waste my itme.. can slp lorh. fucking hell.. hahsa.

lazy. wanna go slp le..bb. =D

rmb. enjoy life while you can. go play lans. drink. smoke. drugs. club often. skip sch. cos sch's a waste of tme. and. yar. hahs. =D bb