failer. loser. gonner.

know something?

i can't accept reality. really.
it just doesn't work for me that way.

cos it hasn't happened to me.

at all......

simple enough.

simple problem..

failer.
loser.

compliated solution.


cos i can't put them into problems.

there's no. first problem. second problem. neither can i exactly say. everything fits together. rather. i think. i cogitate that. its just a series of unfortuante series.

to me. i find that. going to church to me. an otiose undertaking? cos. i dun feel anythg. its just. going someplace. where i no longer enjoy. nor do i experience much. rather. God. its just. im going for the sake of going. becos. i dont find that. i exp god at all. i just go and. sing. and . yea. that. oh wells. i dunno. i just feel dried up. and kinda useless. =D

yea. i know. this is gonna be those kinda entires. that. kinda like. are those kinda. controversial entires.oh wells.. just. inda like. let me be. okay peeps?

just. let me be. let me be myself for once. okay? pls. im begging u

going on.

i dun think i shd be going to sch lorh

why??

i failed my fucking maths
i failed
okay?
yes
i failed
i screwed my maths
i flunked my maths
i fucked up my maths
yea

i gotta fwd this module.

fuck it
cos my next sem gonna be crap

i dunno larh
its gonna fuck up

once again

i don't wanna be fucked up and down once again by my parents and friends and all those kinda shitty thgs la..

so. yea. mabbie i shd stop sch

go home and slp

do my ns. go open a busniess.

why???

cos i find that. its gonna hpn again. im gonna screw smthg . some kinda subject. no??

i thg that it will hpn.

i even find work fucked up.

kiang ho liao
mai gay kiang.

yea.

haiz.

oh wells. nvm.... i'll just see wad i can do in my power..

to me.. God aint god. he's just. God. up there. away. looking down and punishing me. i dunno...

and NOPE.

it aint cos of you. okay? dun think so much. =D

smiles.