just had a long talk with mel, haha. really enjoyed it bitch. haha. dont ask me why i call her bitch. maybe cos when i first knew her i think she was a bitch. haha. and she still IS! haha

but yea, our topics revolved around well, relationships and death and life. haha. i know. this is really crazy. actually, we talked about everything under the sun. haha. thats kinda usual actually.

i kinda miss that time where we'd just hang out and chat for like. damn long. but i guess we have our own lives, and all, and yet,yea, we still kept in touch.

yae, one of our main topics was relationships. she and her ex, and me and my.. well. me. im still single. =x enjoy singlehood while you can. it wont last for long for many. so yea. please enjoy singlehood... =)

was talking about death. partly cos, ytd attended a funeral. its not some person i really know or anything. i probably i havent even met him. (the dead guy) but yea, its somethign that thugs your heart and mind. you will just think about it. death.
who will cry for you when you're gone? who will be at your funeral? will the people be there because, they love you? or just because, they're nice.?
will they be there to cry along with those who love you?
or will they just sit, and appear sad and broken.?

how will they take your death?
who will cry for you?
will the one you love cry for you?
because you are gone? and that they can nv enjoy themselves in your company ever again? and be left with a void in their lives you've left them?
or will they cry only for taht day because they know you.
and shrugg it off the next day.

you will never know
until you are gone.

will you, cry because you love the one who died?
so truely? so madly? so deeply?
or will you not even cry?

you'll never know how much that person means to you till he/she is gone.





Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark






watch this video, serious

on the mirror:
"il m'aime" — he loves me ...
on her hand:
"un peu" — ... just a little bit?
painted on the wall:
"beaucoup" — ... a lot?
on her arm:
"passionément" — ... passionately?
cut into her leg:
"a la folie" — ... unto madness?
on the mirror, she adds:
"il m'aime ... pas du tout" — he does not love me at all.


who's gonna watch you die?
who's gonna watch me die?

will you watch me as i die?