A warm sensation fills my body
My heart races with every touch
The softness of your voice soothes
My soul
As I lay there hoping the moment
Will never end
Calling out for you
Praying that you'll never let me go
The sensation so strong
I can no longer feel my body
Slowly I fade in and out of reality
In an instant the warm sensation
Fades away
My heart empty
My soul torn apart
Lying there; wondering where I went
Wrong
Calling out for you, only to find
there is no answer
My mind invaded with thoughts
So cruel and unrefined
The sensation of fear of what's to come
Slowly the reality over powering
The lust and fantasy
Leaving me empty
Confused on how to think or feel
The loneliness I feel
So wretched and compelled
Betrayal to myself
Revealing the terrors of my love

When one loves completely, but the love is not returned, they must bestow a most painful gift. That of letting go. For if you love someone, you will do anything you can to make them happy.

No matter how much it hurts.

today was an almst perfect day!! haha.. went to church.. played the bass for yf worship.. for all my time playing.. i think.. this was one of the better worship sessions.. dan ltr went for a lil bit of class.. dan went to pick gigi.. and wen i was like.. waiting for me dada.. my dear da jie surprised me.. haha.. i was like..w alking towards the vending machine.. dan i saw her.. dan she saw me.. dan we were like.. looking at each other.. in my mind was like.. she looks damn bloody familar.. im sure.. dan portia.. haha.. i can't believe!! im like.. whoah!! she looks so diff.. haha.. i was like.. down cast in a way cos i gotta like.. pick me lil sis.. so can't pei me da jie.. sad.... left church.. another surprise.. me mama bitch told me tt we're like.. so gonna take care of rachel again!! woah... another gd news.. haha.. i dunno.. i just like tt lil gal rachel.. haha.. so cute.. lolX dan went to living santuary brethan church.. woah.. i mean.. i lurve tt plc.. in a way.. and freak.. i admit here kaes.. i cried.. while singing one of the songs.. i cried.. cos i reallie felt the HS moving in me.. and i was like.. weak.. i dunno how to describe the feeling.. its soo gd.. haha.. i reallie dunno how to sae.. i can't describe it.. its just a feeling u gtta feel.. nwae.. im cuming back for the next 2 wks.. to finish the topic the pas was on.. it was.. simple and yet cheem.. and indepth too.. haha.. dan after the service .. waited for gigi... long wait.. and yea.. got angel to jio portia out for lunch.. and jin too.. haha.. but cos gigi's lateness..(which was acceptable.. cos she was crying and her fren was asked to recieve Christ) me dada made us eat w them.. (us as in me and gigi).. yea.. and i tot i like.. wun meet my jie liao.. so kinda pissed w me dada and sad.. left for suntec.. and found out tt posh was joining us!! yea.. haha.. happi liao.. lolX.. met up w jon.. waited for his "signing up" for his uni corse at eng.. dan left to meet jie and angel.. yea.. on the way.. ujin called.. said tt he was @ kenney roger's w jon ng.. ndrew.. aaron.. and the like.. yea.. so.. tt was one bad side.. sienz.. but cos.. meeting jie was more impt dan other stuff.. lolX.. yea.. so practically spent the rest of the day w her.. haha.. man.. i sound damn immature.. lolX.. yea.. da jie here.. jie jie there.. lolX.. yea.. the other shitty thing was tt M U lost to M C.. fuck!! 4-1.. bloodly MU defense problems.. FERGI!! go resolve ur stupid f-ing defense.. brown shd be outta there!! he sucks big time!! haha.. yea.. last but not least..
I LURVE ME DA JIE!!
jie.. if u reading this.. rmb.. a promise is a promise kkaes?? dun break it yea?? lurve ya.. lolX..